Messes

Messes. In other words, my friends. Get to know them. They're all I talk about.

Tori- My best friend. She's gonna be an actress. She's got lots of dreams like that. She's not so sure if all of her dreams are gonna come true, but I am. She's gonna be someone great. We spend lots of time in the dashboard confessional, talking about the shit in our lives and we have our own table at the local coffee house where we rant to each other over mocapolaricecaps. Tori is crazy and I love her for it.

Taylor- Another super-amazing friend. She's got a heart of gold and couldn't hurt a fly. I love her to death. We like to stay up late and watch Teen Wolf all summer. She's my only other sober friend when we go to parties so she's refreshing to have around to say the least. We like to laugh at the stupid things our friends say when they're drunk. She wants to be a missionary in far-away countries and help people all over the world. Sounds like a perfect future for her.

John- He's argumentative and annoying. He's charming and confusing. I get mad at him because he always says the wrong thing. But I love him because he's the only thing keeping me sane, and vice versa. We like to sit in parking lots and talk for hours (our record is four). I don't know what I would ever do with out him. He knows me. He has me memorized in a way that no other boy took the time to do. He's my best guyfriend.

Joey- My shoulda coulda woulda love. Joey isn't a normal guy. Joey is a perfect guy. But Joey moved away when we were still kids. He and I kept in contact for years. We texted, emailed, called, and messaged our way into the kind of friendship that saves lives-- first his, then mine. That long-distance relationship lasted so much longer than it ever had a right to. But now, we've run out of things to say.

Kiley- She's someone I've gotten closer to lately. The deeper her depression sinks, the more I feel the need to reach for her. Maybe I just have a problem with trying to fix people. But our friendship is growing. She's becoming one of my best friends. She wants to be a writer, and she's fantastic. And after years of being what people wanted out of her, she's finally being herself, which is something I can relate to. Never feeling like who you are is good enough for other people to see.

CJ- My current boyfriend. He's the sweetest boy in the world and I don't deserve him. His only goal is to make me happy, which is more than I could ever ask for. It's a good start to what I hope will be a wonderful relationship.